So you just moved to the big city, got yourself a waitressing, or sales job somewhere, and just like in the movies, you tell yourself, this is temporary until ‘you make it big.’ Next thing you know many years pass by and you are still in the same place, you auditioned, even got yourself an agent, and joined many workshops but it doesn’t seem to work, you still have the same day job and that dream of making it big is looking more and more impossible. You tell yourself, that perhaps you don’t have what it takes.

You read many self-help books, listen to podcasts, some people will tell you to always have a plan B., some people tell you not to, and perhaps your day job offers you a promotion, that gives you the perfect excuse to forget why you started working there in the first place. You become a “normal” person, working your 9 to 5 job wondering about your next holidays, and online shopping ( there is nothing wrong with that ).

As someone who has been in and is still part of the game for many many years, I can tell you, there are no secrets. There is nothing wrong with a day job, I would suggest working somewhere where there could be opportunities for learning and networking. I have spent most of my adult life working a job, saving my money to create, produce the next best show, and repeat. I have lived in 4 countries where I followed the same pattern, work, save, quit, do only music until I run out of money, and start over.

They say that the definition of being insane is repeating the same action over and over and expecting a different outcome. Well looking back, I must be insane, but if you are reading this, let's ask ourselves, how would I do things differently?

I would suggest never quitting any jobs you are doing ( work part-time if you can afford it), there is always something to learn with everything you do. Do not put yourself down, or be ashamed of your day job, that is part of being an artist, you need to support yourself, live, eat, and more importantly, have peace of mind.

Peace of mind gives you space to create with no limit.

Take the pressure of wanting to make everything happen, right here, right now. Rome was not built in a day, it took years and years ( I need to remind myself of this). Focus on your craft, how can you perfect it, become better, learn a different side of your business and brand ( remember you are a business so treat it as such ) During covid, we filmed and edited our music videos which made me fall in love with visuals and art.

Be open-minded about the outcome, your dream might change, transform and that’s growth. A friend of mine recently moved from Budapest, she and her husband owned a dance company and thought they would have more opportunities here. When they arrived they quickly understood that they would need day jobs to support themselves. Her husband sent many many CVs of his experience as a director, but nothing. One of his side passions was interior design, during covid he decided to send his CV for a position and got it right away. He is now happier than ever doing what he loves, just something different.

Don’t compare yourself to others. Your friends might be on broadway, 5 years younger, and for them, it was so easy, well guess what? That is not your journey, and it’s ok. Your time will come.

Don’t listen to the negative voices around you, as well as yours! Sometimes the voice in your head can be the loudest.

Lastly, live your life as much as you can. Life is so precious! Sometimes when we are passionate about something, we can become obsessive over it, work, practice, and let it go. I know that you want to prove to the world, your family, but really yourself that you can do it and although that energy can make you move mountains some time, being kind to yourself is so important, remember you want to be in for the long hall.

While I m writing this for you, I am reminded of what really matters, yes I want and will have my number one single on the radio, yes I want to go and will go on tour around the world but until then I am here sharing my experiences, something I can not take for granted.

Looking forward to hearing your thoughts.

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It would be a lie if I would start by telling you that I’m super laid back as an individual, that I go with the flow, and whatever happens, happens. I have my moments; I strongly believe you create your own life the way you want it to be. If I were to describe myself, I would say that I am a fighter, and just like anybody, I sometimes feel tired, weak, and vulnerable. I am hard on myself physically and mentally because part of me believes that I am not living the life I am supposed to live. Well, it’s getting better, but boy, I have worked and worked at it! My first love has always been music. At first, it was my escape, but then it became my safe space where I could breathe, where I could be, and where I could let go. I wanted it to be my life, but just like your first love, I felt like I didn’t know how I could live with it. What was once a place of total freedom and bliss now became the pursuit of perfection. Of course, there is no perfect song, but there is the feeling of having the melody perfectly fitting the chord progression and the perfect line of instruments, overlapping one another like a glove to a hand. I wanted to be a star. Well, that is what I thought. Deep down, I think I just wanted to be seen, heard, respected, and to make a name for myself or, even better, feel wanted. If you are an artist reading this, you know exactly what I mean. The more you are wanted, the more work you will get, and finally, you feel you are good enough. After all, if they want you then you must be important; you must matter. The truth is that I am still on that quest! Not to become famous but to be recognized for my work. My life is work, music, creation, composing, writing; it is controlled to the point that I want it to be amazing. Yet, in my personal life, I think I am a bit different. I know what I want and what I don’t want, yet I still leave space for this unknown. Whatever happens, will happen. In my early twenties, I was longing for connections, relationships, and love. I remember a friend of mine told me, “You will never be single, I don’t think you can handle being on your own”. The funny part is that every big decision I have made in my life was always made alone. I moved countries, I followed my gut and I was always alone, but he was right, I always felt like I needed somebody. I went from one relationship to another for eight years. I then decided that it was time to care about myself.

In society, some families don't like single women after you pass a certain age - well, at least my family - so I had the urge to do what I wanted when I wanted. I met amazing people on my path, on my travels, I had affairs with men that I knew wouldn’t last, but it was all about the moment. Then I was fine; there was no void to be filled in. I was an independent woman with goals, living life fully, enjoying the moment, but really, I made peace with all my expectations. There were voices in my head saying, “What if I am single my whole life? Who would want to be with a strong-minded female singer? You will probably never have kids! Maybe you'll die alone". I let all of that go and thought, so what? So, what if I'm single my whole life? Who is really the happiest? People get divorced anyway! If me being single makes you uncomfortable because you are scared that I might steal your man, then that is your problem, not mine. I'll go find my people. I want to tell you that this story has a happy ending, but I don’t know. I'm still figuring it out. In terms of my love life, once I started to let go, I found my special person who is on my latest podcast episode titled

As for the music, I am holding on. I'm not ready to let go yet. I have a feeling that I will have to do it soon because although things are moving forwards, it feels difficult, and lately, I noticed that the best things that happen to me just happened with no stress. I put the idea out to the universe, I did the work and, without expectations, received exactly what I was looking for.

How does life work for you?

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You never know how lucky you are, until it’s all gone. What is that all about? It seems like we have this ability to take things for granted once they begin to become easier for us. If not your job, it’s the relationship with your partner, or our parents, people that are always there for us, why?

We are so busy running after what we think makes us happy, like success, love, power, recognizing that we never really take the time to look around and be truly thank full for all the little things we have in our life. I am so guilty of that with an always moving forward mentality, working head down until “I make it”. It’s never enough, isn't it? no no, we can do more, have more, want more, care more until you hit a wall, or get thrown in a completely different situation. Perhaps it’s the universe who is tell you, head up, look around, there is beauty you haven’t seen, amazing people you need to meet, you are missing the best part!! Oh, and by the way, if you don’t listen, the life that you know will stop, deconstruct and rebuild in a different way.

They talk about a gratitude journal, meditation, breathing just to acknowledge your wealth.

I do all these things, write on my gratitude journal, meditate, yoga and it comes in waves, sometimes I can let go of it all and sometimes not.

I started a podcast because I was told that it was the thing to do, to share my musical journey but what I didn’t know is that I would enjoy it so much. Having deep conversations about things that matter, and connecting on a deep level gives me a different protective on things. My latest conversation with Jad was set to talk about the impact of social media in countries where we don’t have the same rights as in Europe. But it became more than that, it became about connection, belonging, and love. Jad shares his path with us from war to peace, from the place where you are born and culture to finding your place in another part of their world, while never forgetting your roots.

It’s quite interesting to grow up somewhere where you don’t really fit in, to then move somewhere else where you can be the real you but still, something is missing. For me, it was growing up in Paris, France to then moving to NYC, and then London. Nowhere really feels like home, once you start moving. In yoga they say your home is your body, is where you Iive for the longest time, and to me, it is all so true. Just like any home, you have to take care of it, love it, nourish it, and be grateful to it. I had so many fights with my body, not being thin enough or strong, too tall, too many curls haha not good enough,

Just like that the vision I have of myself is the vision I have of the world, of others. How can you love someone else fully if you don’t love yourself? Well, that I will say I am in progress, learning, accepting, and surrender.

Life is an amazing place, and we are here to live it fully. Look at it through someone else eyes, you might notice things you have never seen before. Say thank you to others, to yourself.

Listen it’s all there for you,

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